I know I've been enjoying life and my job more this school year, but tonight I got confirmation from the students.
For the past 10-ish years, I've been a judge for the boy beauty pageant at my school (it's a fundraiser for charity). It's always a good time. Last year, in the midst of infertility treatments, I know I was probably mostly a shell of my usual self, going through the motions, still bonding with some kids, but definitely not loving my job (or anything else, really). They introduce the judges individually, and last year (two months after the failed IVF), when they said my name, it was almost complete silence, maybe some polite applause. I joked with my friend next to me that I must have been a bitch that year since I had no fans. I think I was right, because this year, when they said my name, there was a lot more shouting and applause, and some of the kids shouting my nickname, so that felt really good. It told me that I am back on track to being my normal self and my normal teacher self that connects with the kids and that they like.